-Linnea-

you know why until now we dont have

this thing below—-?

world peace.

well, it is because there are still alot of "ugly-minders inside their dumb-black anatomy" walking around the planet.

i asked them: Do i look like a bitch or a whore if i wear this thing?

they answered or, better yet, she answered: NO! you can carry it very well, infact!

so if thats her opinion then why the hell she keeps on bothering me about my outfits that i know its not that conservative either it is that seductive.

im just being me.

or maybe because of her insecurities that she cant wear such!?!?

well, its not my fault.and i should not be blamed by her indifferences and complexities!

i really hate her!

i really hate the kind of people who just keeps on growing old and making her body that big, but is thinking backwards and very much conceited!

its not for her to understand the world and ME!

so long, i am not hurting anybody or causing harm to anyone,

why should i bother?

its just a matter of minding your own business!

i will really remember you with blazing fire, not just on your nose, but all over you!!!

ASSHOLE!

hoi manok !! gari kna manok!!

datapwat…

ikaw ay hari ng pintakasi.

ayos lng.

hmmp.

MANOK!!!

dai taka naiintindihan pero sinasabi ko parin na naiintindihan kita.

at sasabihin ko NAIINTINDIHAN tlga kita!

kahit hindi.

tuktaraok!=)

pag ganyan ka pa rin…

ganito ang kalalabasan mo..

haha.

charing!=)

To Watch You Leaving . . .

is to know such pain, it’s jagged edges tearing into my soul. As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth.

For the balance of my days.

i know its very much late to still post this thing.

but, juz wanna share, how my new year had been, to you and especially to that individual who i just saw awhile ago here in this cafe, who made my new year this way…..

In the din of fireworks and noisy drums, of colored lights in the doorways, and the clamor of the crowd yearning for peace and prosperity, I wandered like a sleepwalker until dawn, watching the fiesta thru my tears, dazed by the hallucination that it was I, and not a new year, who had been born that night——-born to fall into a deeper loneliness and much more a deeper cut of the worst pain.

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I saw him yesterday.

How I wanted to expunge him in my thoughts and how I’m really making an effort to do so.

But there he was, yesterday, saying his HI’s to me and beckoning his hands as if nothing was wrong, as if nothing tainted, as if everything in the universe were still fine between us, as if I could or he could still turn back time.

But honestly, although how helpless I am in trying to somehow and somewhat erase his “everything” in my damn anatomy; one look on him, a glimpse of him, and the very moment I am able to talk to him again, made those efforts and hardships of unwanting him, vanish!

I still have this something that I can’t comprehend why, each time I’m with him or each time I see him.

Yesterday, I fell in love once more.

Today, when i saw you at the cafe in the school, in your favorite black  suit, your hair fixed with gel to groove in the latest trend, your lean face, that chinky-glacial eyes in dark lines, your aristocrat nose, and that petrifying pair of lips you have; i thought i love you no more.

well,  once more, i felt the magnitude of falling  into the abyss of the so-called love, right at that moment. i admit now, i still do….

but later then, after i recover from that intense feeling; i realized that what ever is between us is nothing more than my crazy illusions.