-Linnea-

my mom told me that he did suicide!

i was terrified!
shocked!
stiffed!
numbed!

and i could have broke down if didn’t hold my friend’s hand.

how could he have done such????

it is so impossible!
and he was even more impossible!!!
i can’t believe that Jerome could do that to his self.
he was such a big coward!
somebody might have caused his death.
i feel so empty, i want to scream out all the emptiness and silence inside me.

i will never have the chance to talk and play chess with him again.
i will never see him anymore.

why did You let this happen to him?
he’s so young—- filled with hopes and dreams.
so young to die.

why such this world turned-out to be so cruel to him that it reaches such climax —–and end up at this point————of killing himself?

there will be no more of Jerome if i get back to our place, no more playing chess, no more mathematician to brainstorm with, and no more "Noy"   to jam with.

how i wish that when i get back home this Thursday, ill find him kicking and laughing that everything was a BIG joke!
so i just have to slap him and kick him all over the place for giving such a very bad joke!!!

but i know, Jers is not joking.
he already left us.
and all of the coming tomorrows, my dear cousin will still not arrive and will never will.