-Linnea-

In this immense universe of emptiness,

I longed for a god to light the stars.

My soul fall into the abyss of desperate illusions,

And my tears drift through the ocean of loneliness.

If life is not a process but a cycle of infinity;

Why can’t two people meet again?

If love is immortal;

Why have yours fade?

You’re now like the clouds, so impossible to embrace;

Like the universe, I can only get to with my naked eyes;

Like the wind, I can’t control from leaving;

Like the horizon, I can never eliminate the distance.

Shower me with the meteors I have been waiting to fall,

Light up the stars so I can maintain my cycle,

Give back the hand that used to wake this soul,

And take away this envelope of sad aura.

Because this human burden is so great;

This earthly condition is too painful,

And I have just reached the unbearable extremes,

And can no longer stand to love alone.

what is this?

all coming backs…

repeat?

haaai…

this

should

not

be

happenning…

who the hell are they?

they juz get it with me when everyone else left them in nowhere?

this is a bull!!! a big bullshit!!

will you please leave my life sucks alone?

sa di inaasahang pagkakataon.

nakita na naman kita.

bakit laging ganito?

sa tuwing gusto ko nang lumimot,

ayan ka na naman.

di mo ba ako patatahimikin?

at padadalhan mo pa ako ng mensahe ng muli nating pagkikitang-landas.

: "Sa pagitan ng kawalan at bukas na palad, ang manipis na ideya ng anyo.

ang sinasalat na salat.

ang tagpo ng pagtatagpo.

Sapagkat hinihingi ng musika ang paglalapit ng layo."

yan ang sabi mo.

kung ganun pala.

bakit pilit kang lumalayo?

ngunit kung ako na ang lalayo din,

hayop! at nanjan kananaman!

pwede ba?

magkalimutan na tayo?!

pagnahihiling ko ika,
aram mo daw na gusto taka baragtakan!!??
gari ka daw halas!
madalion mag ribay!
iu mau manangad kita.

mau na kaya nin mapadangat sa imo
nin pareho kan gibo ko.

yaon ako digdi ngunyan tigdara kan sakong bitis sa cafe digdi sa my barlin.
maduman kuta ako sa cathedral, kaya lang relihiyoso kaya ako na marai dae ko aram sarado palan.
kaya naisipan ko mag pa San Francisco, kala ko bukas, tanga kaya talaga ako, sarado man syempre.
mau lang. gusto ko lang kaya mag laog sa sarong simbahan.
naglaog kaya ako sa Ateneo chapel, kaya lang ugwang duwang kalag na dai ko aram kun nagaano. pero sigurado ako dai sinda nagpapamibi.
kaya sabi ko maduman man daw ako sa ibang simbahan. marai sana ta dai ako nagpa Basilica. sigurado ako sarado man gayud toh nhunyan anu?
haai..napapahibi kaya ako.
mayu man makakaintindi sako kundi siya lang man kaya sya ang gusto ko dumanan.

kaogmahan iyan kan sakong puso.

gusto ko lang mag simbag

maski dae man ako hinahapot.

maski dae man tighahagad si sakuyang opinion.

nawawara man kaya an kabanga kan sakong puso.

yaon sain?

yaon sana po sa imo.

dae ko aram kun matubod ka,

pero garu risa man anu?!

dai ko daw maisip kun tanu nag arog ako ka ini sa imo.

mau ka man kun tutuuson.

si say ka man?

mau!!!

dakulang mau!!

kaya minamawot ko na ika na mau sana,

mawara manangad sa sakuyang pagmati,

asin maging mau ka na kuta.

napapagal na man ako.

i just wanna let you know of my heroic deed.

i know its quite pride-uplifting to let someone know about your "what-about", but the hell i care!

you know what i have done?

ive done this heroic deed of letting you fall into somelese care and love, when infact i could have given you more.(even though ive got no assurance of something any in return)

but you know what?

God alone knows how much this heroic (ironically, i am not a hero, i even cant have you!i even cant twist the time or twist your feeling to be mine!) resolve cost me, and how many bitter tears i have to shed behind the fire exit door of our dormitory to surivive my private catastrophe.

and still, i have been thinking of the promises that never have been did, and for the sweet memories that i know will not or might not happen again.

i hope you know, i cant drink vodca and dance in reggae with those memories alone…

thanks!!!

ill take care of my self for you.

because i know you cant take care of me.

so ill take care of myself, of you, and of everything left about us.

this is the  loneliest thing on earth, when all you have left are the memories to cling on.

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see it through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Right now
I know you can tell
I'm down,and i'm not doin' well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday,
I know someone's gonne be there

Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday